For a while

After three to four years I am back on my blog. I don't know what happened but am back now and that I intent to stay for a while.


Past time line
I had happy times and very down times as well, but that didn't put me down. I strive because of someone/something super natural being that kept me going each day. Now I sit back and realize that I would not have made it through those real dark times, if it wasn't for the super natural being. I am so thankful that the little hope that I had in him was just enough to keep me going. Now, I am happy whether big or small am happy, reason being that He will keep me through. there is something in me wants to know this being more, it has a zeal for him, just cant wait then remembered that I used to have that before and I know that I am on the right track. I must have gone far, far and far and has taken me 3-4 years to trace it back, now that I found the zeal will not let it go...I will keep you close by me.


I love what I am doing, imparting skills and knowledge I have gained in my few years on this planet earth, as I learn I will continue to impart.


Thank you, Lord


Lena

Riley walked to church

a week earlier (he loves sugar fruit and just finished one)

walking out of the room to go to church

after church

On Sunday, Riley and I got dressed to go to church. He wore his futua and his stockman and was already outside waiting for me. He acts so big, behaves like the grown up kids. He is yet to form words, and letters. He can only form sounds and putting them together to make words such as mama, and meme (goat) and daddy, bye,and ba (bus). He understands what I say and follows immediately either in obedient or disobedient. He's been trying to hit me on the face when he is not happy about something and I have flipped his fingers and that has made him stop for now but may be he will continue again, who knows.

He is one kid that wokes up quite awake. This morning I woke up and walked out of the room to go to the rest room. He was fast asleep, and as soon as I closed the door of the room, I heard him saying mama...I just stopped, thinking that he'll go back to bad. Nope, he walked out and tried to open the door. When I helped opened the door he smiled and said nana (his breakfast). oh, nana is his nannys' native language meaning food

Above are some pics i took on sunday (05/06/11). he is now 1 year 5 months 13 days old.

Rileys Pics

The four pics were taken 16th of Jan 2011, 1 & 2.5 wks old.

after a long swim he was really hungry n gave him riped plaintain. (1 yr & 1wk old)

a day before is birthday..he loves his car!(25th Dec.2010)

a week after his birthday...(saturday)

Boxing Day

The Boxing day is very special to me this days because of my son's birthday. He was borned on the 26th of December 2009 and he will turn one the coming Sunday. I know I havent posted any pics of him lately and I apologise...I dont have a camera right now. So Ill just give few words of whats been observed. He started to slide down of the bed by himself when he was only crawling. He then goes to the window and starts to scream at his mate who is three years old. The three year old than walks to the window side to reponds to him and its so funny watching him get so excited and puts him both feet to climb the glass. Of course I go for his rescue. Then about two weeks ago he started to walk...kind of...took few steps and then falls. Just yesterday he was walking smoothly on the lawn and I sat and watched him while he was having fun with the other kids. All of these to say that he is growing faster than I expected. Very soon two of us will hand in hand walking together, doing shopping. marketing..etc. So everyone Ill put some pics if I find a camera...much Love and please celebrate safe this festive season. Wishing you all A Very Merry Christmas and Prosphorous New Year 2011!

Reflection

Today I sat back and remembered what had happened so far. I left Bangladesh with pain in my heart because of this huge guilt...I was frustrated with myself but I knew that I wasn't in the position to undo what was done so I came. Just after few months, to be specific May 28/05/2009, my dad passed away (September 14th 2009). Its been a year and a month, and other two died in my family (my eldest sibling and first niece)...when you talk about family relationships...it goes all the way to the roots so to say. I know that we are living in two worlds (Physical and the spiritual worlds), my leaving, I thought was that tragic but than I realized that, I would live and work in a more painful life if I wasn't present in person with my family during these time of mourning. It was for the better, although dying of these people not fair as many would say....the all knowing God knew that and brought me here and there are things that I need to contribute to the family. Everything happens for a reason and I belief in that. I am looking forward for next year will bring and that is also in the hands of the Lord All Mighty.

Peace to you all!

(By the way this year has been a year of death...I don't know if you have heard or seen about so many dying...my country has had a lot of dying this year alone).

Two Deads in the Family

On the 24th of October 2010, was my second eldest brother's burial. After one day of rest, my eldest brother's daughter passed away, both from illnesses. It was such a tragic.... The cost of the casket for both, food for the mourners...it is quiet an expense, but the pain of loosing them is such that, I thought I will not make it. But its a week now and I am coping. My family is right now going through a lot of emotional pain....every time I reach home, just getting into the trend of being so tired...this is what I am experiencing. please think of me and my family in your prayers.

Thank you

7 months old Riley

Betty with Riley. Jerry with Riley.

Nayamo with Riley. The 3 of us.

Baby sitter and Riley. Me and Riley.

These photos were taken on the same day...the baby sitter, me and riley are infront of the lab...the other pics are taken at the dept. conference room... The pics were taken about three weeks ago.