Reflection

Today I sat back and remembered what had happened so far. I left Bangladesh with pain in my heart because of this huge guilt...I was frustrated with myself but I knew that I wasn't in the position to undo what was done so I came. Just after few months, to be specific May 28/05/2009, my dad passed away (September 14th 2009). Its been a year and a month, and other two died in my family (my eldest sibling and first niece)...when you talk about family relationships...it goes all the way to the roots so to say. I know that we are living in two worlds (Physical and the spiritual worlds), my leaving, I thought was that tragic but than I realized that, I would live and work in a more painful life if I wasn't present in person with my family during these time of mourning. It was for the better, although dying of these people not fair as many would say....the all knowing God knew that and brought me here and there are things that I need to contribute to the family. Everything happens for a reason and I belief in that. I am looking forward for next year will bring and that is also in the hands of the Lord All Mighty.

Peace to you all!

(By the way this year has been a year of death...I don't know if you have heard or seen about so many dying...my country has had a lot of dying this year alone).

Two Deads in the Family

On the 24th of October 2010, was my second eldest brother's burial. After one day of rest, my eldest brother's daughter passed away, both from illnesses. It was such a tragic.... The cost of the casket for both, food for the mourners...it is quiet an expense, but the pain of loosing them is such that, I thought I will not make it. But its a week now and I am coping. My family is right now going through a lot of emotional pain....every time I reach home, just getting into the trend of being so tired...this is what I am experiencing. please think of me and my family in your prayers.

Thank you