Responsibilities

In the past years of life, I had at least two of three only things to do and that was easy. Now I got parenting of 8 children, taking care of their grand mother, 3 courses to teach and prepare course books for the students, writing papers for conferences, doing surveys, and Teaching supervision for student teachers, but most of all that I love doing is gardening. Getting my self into the dirt and playing around with it. After all those that I have mentioned, I like going home and listen to the birds singing and just dig away. 

So I have planted two blocks of sweet potato gardens and they are almost ready for harvest. I still have two more blocks to plant. I am planning for two items, carrots and sweet potato. Hopefully I will get the soil prepare done next week, before the planting. 

Then I will go for Teaching Practice (TP) as a supervisor for the student teachers. I will leave my 8 children and my other 38 students with heaps of work load for them while I will be away for two weeks for TP. Hopefully I will get my VISA done for travel during the Christmas, and that will be a relief for me from all these tight schedules that I have. After the TP i will be getting papers ready for the conference.

Hope that all will be ok.

Few pics here.

 

God has always been good to me and my family.

Pens off.

Lena

Pondering

Today is one of those normal days, where you got to ponder. Well, I woke of quite well and came to work not knowing what was ahead of me. Did my normal things as always, things you do in the office, pretend to do office work when your boss comes by, but in actual fact, I am reading blogs, or on face book or chatting with my co-worker.

Well now you really know what I do right..well actually that's not what I do always, this isn't what I was doing or do but it seems or seemed like.

I had to walk a few distance to feed my hungry stomach, and back to the office, and as I was about to  entered the office when I was met by friends so started speaking in Bangla.  To me it sounded so good that silently I  tell myself that I am doing good with you Bangla, yet when you ask them about any random questions about the conversation, no respond. Wow, it only takes me back to square one, again i will improve with my speaking Bangla. 

Christmas is coming around the corner except I didn't feel like I want to celebrate it. I am so bombarded with restless thoughts. I want to move around but I cant. I feel like I have prisoned myself. There a lots of things that I want to do but I cant do them. Right now my mind is tired yet cant rest either. My body is heavy and weak...yet I don't want to lie down. my blood is just right, yet my fingers and feet are swollen. This is not out of frustration but sharing what I am feeling right now. I know that these are part of the big change...BUT could it be sooner...I still have few more weeks to go through. I should not be restless...may be its just today...but wait this has been happening for a while (two weeks ago). Those of you know me, I'am doer, not waiting for things to come to me, but meet them on the way. Well it will be ok, at the end of the line.

Peace.

Lena

Hmmm...my Bangladesh life is almost coming to end. On Wednesday the 27th, 11:45 pm will be my flight. I might not be using internet for a while, but just want to put some words that have been bothering me for the past two weeks. To start with the fresh encouragements that I hear from my friends: gentle spirit, loving, inner strength, people connector, and I thought...these are not new words, I have heard this before from my wonderful friends whom I have worked with and went to church with in Texas, World hunger Relief, Inc and Hope Fellowship. But then the big question arises, WHY AM I GOING home? What am I missing? What is the fact about me that is not known to people whom I worked with, and sharing everything with can not see this item/things/character that is not exposed? This made me thinking, I should say that I am a thinker, I can think all night and still I will functioned the next morning. Anywhere, just to say that I am right now battling with myself about things that i can not control over. Thanks for your eyes and ears.

God's Peace!

Lena