Mind's Battle

Its the mind!
Travels way faster then the speeding bullet, discovers the wonders that you would never do it in reality. Its the mind that makes you sad, happy, causes troublesome, brings fantasy right to your door step. Oh mind, words can not describe you to your full potential of what capacity you can destroy a man and mend a broken person. Most of the time I think only with my mind, not involving the heart, thats when I feel like I can travel for ever and experience the unseen things of the world. I am in my fantasy world, but when I am back from that world, its a pain.. then comes the questions with the conditional word "IF" only I've done that, or these. Trying to bring me back to my self yet I dont have the power to do so sometimes so I continue to fantasy. Mind can finish a book within few minutes and yet in reality I can only finish a page or two...oh MIND!!

My New Job

I am doing tissue culturing. Infront of the pathology section with my friends.

I have started working in a biotechnology lab as a scientific officer. The name sounds so complex...but what I am doing is not that complicated. What I have been basically involved for the past few weeks is doing media preparation for plant tissue culture either for regeneration or for multiplication. This is basically puttting together nutrients (both macro and micro) plus hormones for growth, root and shoot formations. This are then put together with agar which is a sea weed that holds the nutrients togther. This is then poured into small vials and put them in for use. Another thing I do is the plants that are kept in the incubation root, are brought out for regeneration. This is basically maintaining the germplasm collection so that the plants species there are kept alive and are not lost.

Thats what I am doing so far...hopefully I will come up with a proposal to work on something of my own.
Thanks for reading

Respect!
I thought that by now my elder brother should respect me yet not. I am so tired of living my old life again.Trying to make him like me and respect me. In the name of peace, I am growing tired of this and anger is grwing inside of me which I need to deal with. I have never, asked anything of him and I dont know what he wants to see that would make him respect me. Maybe he is just up to him self that he has no care at all for others. Today I am so frustrated just dont want to see his face. I see why my other brothers and sister never come close to him. I need to get out of his side....Lord please help me to come to a good decision that will not hurt the other.

Grrrh!!!!

New Working Area

Well its been a month now I am working as a scientific officer. here are some pics of me, friends and the lab. I work doing tissue culture. Most work that I was involved for the past few weeks are doing taro regeneration tissue culture, potato media preperation, sweet potato media preparation. Currently I still dont know what I am doing yet...my job description has not been given out yet. So I should say I must have a patience. I am still looking for a house to leave in but other than that I am still trying to catch up with this slow phase which is irritating sometimes.

Thats whats happening right now but I will put out what the outcome of my next visit to the doctor next week.

Blessings!

7 months pregnancy

Hellow all,
On the month of April I found out that I was pregnant and so I had to leave. I know I didnt tell everyone that I know before leaving because I just thought I wasnt ready to let everyone. But I know that such news leaks out or it break its way out so I know that by now most of you know the reason I left. Those of you still dont know, well this is the reason. I apology for not letting you all know, I hope that youll forgive me.

Well, not that I am growing big and heavy now. By the way I am 29 weeks into my pregnancy and that is about 7 months. The baby is kicking and making lots of move inside me while I am writing right now. I just met with the doctor and went through the scaning and I have mentioned to me that its a she. We could exactly tell whether thats a she or a he. Anywhere, I am not sad, I know that the life is growing in me and I am looking for ward for it to come out and see the light. I still have few months (2 months and few weeks) before delivery. I will try my best to put out some pics of me later.

29 weeks (7 months) old..in my room
I thank those of you who are praying for me....God is great and I am still connected to him.

Peace!

Word of Apology and Appreciation

Wow, its been so long and I havent been upto date with my blog. I am just happy that now I have an internet excess and I get to write down whats happening in my life as time goes by. But for this I have to recap the past happenings and try as much as possible to put down the brief details of the past three and a half months.

I left Bangladesh on the 27th of May 2009. Before leaving Bangladesh, I had only one week to say good bye to my friends there. My apology to most of my friends that I didnt visit due to time limitation. Those that I manage to visit, I know I didnt give much time to them so I also apologise to them too. I am so thankful that I get to work and hangout with very great people, and I appreciate you wonderful encouragements. Anywhere, I left with sadness but I will not regret the decision that I made to leave, it was a good course for me. I will let you know why in my next blog.

Leaving Bangladesh

Well, today is 18th of May and Iam leaving Bangladesh on the 27th of May. This is so soon to leave; I haven't completed my three year commitment, but I must go..soon..soon the better. MCC is working on my flight fare and I am right now packing and finishing up things before I live. I did not think this would be me..but it happened and I have to leave. O well, I have to think about the positive sides here, though I feel lost and lonely but I know one day that there ll be an opened arm saying, come my child I don't care about your wrongs you've done, no longer I remember, no more...will that be so amazing to hear? Well, I just called my guardian's and said do come home....i am going home with burden, but I will right now let future take care of itself and I will face it as it comes...I thank those of you have been praying for me, and reading this blog...I know I don't post things often but you have kept with me. May God's grace increase in you lives. I have a life that is springing in me and I cant wait for that...though I know I am not ready for it...but I know that we'll manage.

God's love and peace to you all.

Lena